Lifes Little Luxury

a beautiful sunny day

I love waking up in the morning and seeing bleu sky, it makes me smile. My days usually seem to go up hill from there (at least lately). I've been feeling pretty positive latley (and here's to not jinxing it) and it feels like I finally know that there are options for me. Maybe not right now beacause I am needed in Kelowna right now, and it actualy feels good to feel needed. I'm working on feeling more positive about myself and my life and, oddly enough, bananas are supposed to help with feeling more positive. They have some sort of natural chemical (or something) with eventually leads to higher levels of seratonin ( which is the chemical in your brain that makes you happy) or so i've been told. But I haven't actually been eating any bananas, but i sure will now.

Sometimes I feel like I have to constently remind myself that this is my life FOR NOW, things change and I can do the things that I want to do, I'm still young, and I have so much time to do the things that I want.. Ya I realise that I am repeating myself, but I'm just drilling it into my brain.

I have explored so many things that I might like to do, or things that I used to dream about when I was kid. Like being an actress (i know, every kid dreams about being famous) but I don't actually want to be "famous" that would drive me nuts, but I would love to act....i just wish I wasn't so darn shy (ish).... man I seem to be contradicting myself left, right and center... ahem...... :) or maybe being a emergency care worker (going over seas and helping out with things like the tsunami disaster) but I'm not sure I could actually handle all that sadness, but I like the idea of new hope and helping where I can....now I'm being cheesy....

anyways, i'm not sure where I was going with this, maybe I'll be able to pick it up next time...

"Goodnight sweet prince" (i have no idea what that is from, but it just popped into my head)

posted by Emily @ 6:56 PM