Friday, August 12, 2005

Why?

feeling so invisible that i'm not even sure that i exist any more. always on the verge of tears, putting makeup on for the purpose of not crying for fear of looking like a raccoon, what a weird saftey net. friendless and alone. life is not feeling very grand and i'm wondering what the point of it is. Why get up every morning? The question is plauging me, my heart pounds at the thought that this is how it is and it's never going to change for me. Heartbreaking. would anybody notice if I disappeared? The bank would be short a teller and thats about it. I guess i'm feeling insignificant and pointless. I think of people all the time, people i knew and loved in high school and i cant help but feel it is not returned. why would anybody think of me, i haven't done anything memorable. anyways, i gotta go help customers.

1 Comments:

At August 14, 2005 at 10:12 AM, Blogger samara said...

I LOVE YOU! and would definately notice if you weren't there, and so would your family, and Amy and Jason, and Norann, and Tara, and Lindsay and everyone else! So don't you even think about it!

 

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